2017 brought with it an overwhelming desire to disconnect so I've been gone for a little while. I haven't mentioned it to anyone except Brandon and my best friend but I'm pretty sure I've been experiencing some of the more mild side effects of Postpartum Depression... It's an awful experience and I really do believe that I've actually had an easier time with it than most women.
It all started a few months ago when I made the incredibly difficult decision to stop breastfeeding. In a "breast is best" world that's a pretty bold decision in itself. But the guilt I felt, the guilt I pushed on myself was even more overwhelming. I made the decision to wean and only a few days later Rue was diagnosed with RSV. The timing was awful. After one long horrible night of bottle feeding failure we decided to wait until Rue was better. She recovered quickly, (probably thanks to breastfeeding) and within a week she was weaned and very comfortable with the bottle. As most of you know 6 months was my minimum goal but I really wanted to make it to a year... It's something I had to let go of. We're making it just fine and Rue is healthy and as happy as ever! I haven't seen my doctor about any of the suspected Postpartum issues and I know that I should. But I definitely feel that there is a stigma attached to that particular diagnosis... I'm dealing with it all in my own time and I feel confident saying there has been improvement so I'll try and keep you updated!
Our Christmas with all four kids was wonderful and we had the hardest time separating after the New Year. Jude is starting Karate and he literally looks just like a miniature Brandon in his uniform. We had lots of plan free time over Christmas Break. Its so easy to miss those laid back days with kids who are growing at lightning speed. Miss Gemma is basically 25 and it's giving me a serious heart ache... She had a dentist check up this week and she just did amazing. (I know, I'm that Mom.) She had her very first X-rays done and in her proudest voice ever told the dentist that she quit sucking her thumb! She also got her ears pierced that same day. She's been mentioning it off and on for about a month but I wasn't sure that she really understood the whole process and the actual meaning of the word "pierced". Turns out I was seriously wrong. Apparently her and Jaden had a lengthy discussion about how it feels like a quick pinch... Thats what she told the sweet ladies who pierced her ears simultaneously... She barely flinched and when she saw herself in the mirror she looked so proud!
Here are a few photos from the Holidays and some more recent ones I've taken!
Thank you all so much for sticking around!
XOXO
Miranda
It all started a few months ago when I made the incredibly difficult decision to stop breastfeeding. In a "breast is best" world that's a pretty bold decision in itself. But the guilt I felt, the guilt I pushed on myself was even more overwhelming. I made the decision to wean and only a few days later Rue was diagnosed with RSV. The timing was awful. After one long horrible night of bottle feeding failure we decided to wait until Rue was better. She recovered quickly, (probably thanks to breastfeeding) and within a week she was weaned and very comfortable with the bottle. As most of you know 6 months was my minimum goal but I really wanted to make it to a year... It's something I had to let go of. We're making it just fine and Rue is healthy and as happy as ever! I haven't seen my doctor about any of the suspected Postpartum issues and I know that I should. But I definitely feel that there is a stigma attached to that particular diagnosis... I'm dealing with it all in my own time and I feel confident saying there has been improvement so I'll try and keep you updated!
Our Christmas with all four kids was wonderful and we had the hardest time separating after the New Year. Jude is starting Karate and he literally looks just like a miniature Brandon in his uniform. We had lots of plan free time over Christmas Break. Its so easy to miss those laid back days with kids who are growing at lightning speed. Miss Gemma is basically 25 and it's giving me a serious heart ache... She had a dentist check up this week and she just did amazing. (I know, I'm that Mom.) She had her very first X-rays done and in her proudest voice ever told the dentist that she quit sucking her thumb! She also got her ears pierced that same day. She's been mentioning it off and on for about a month but I wasn't sure that she really understood the whole process and the actual meaning of the word "pierced". Turns out I was seriously wrong. Apparently her and Jaden had a lengthy discussion about how it feels like a quick pinch... Thats what she told the sweet ladies who pierced her ears simultaneously... She barely flinched and when she saw herself in the mirror she looked so proud!
Here are a few photos from the Holidays and some more recent ones I've taken!
Thank you all so much for sticking around!
XOXO
Miranda
P.S. I'm sorry for the amount of photos I take of my children... :)
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