6 Weeks Post Partum

I had my 6 week check up this morning! I can't believe it's already been that long since the c section and since we met our little Rue! My recovery has been so easy and Rue is a great baby so that helps! 

I'm allowed to start running again so I'm having very mixed feelings about that! With Gemma I was eager to get back into shape and I really focused on that. I should have been more relaxed and focused on making a success of breastfeeding. There are so many moms... So. So. So. Many... who are able to have a baby and jump right back into an intense excercise routine... This time I'm just not going to be one of them... My main goal right now is to focus on breastfeeding. We're doing so well and I really want that to continue for at least four and half more months. But my true goal is one year! 

I'll start running again regularly this week but I am by no means going to take it as seriously as I did before. I'm definitely not loving my body in the state that it's currently in but I am loving that it supports my sweet girls needs adequately! There is no greater design than that... Breastfeeding is truly a gift for mother's and I'm realizing its true value so much more this time. It is so much more than feeding your baby. When I finally realized I'd have to stop nursing Gemma exclusively and add formula into the equation I was so upset... Not because I was pressured by all of the 'breast is best' propaganda but because I felt I was losing a closeness I had shared with her, and I got great validation from meeting her needs successfully up until then.

I'm still amazed at what our bodies can do. My incision has healed so well and I feel great! Maybe a little more tired than usual but over all I really feel excellent. I'm so thankful for a great doctor to really carry me through these last months so reassuringly.

Gemma is handling all of this a lot better now. I knew we'd get here eventually but the first three weeks were really hard on her. Which means they were really hard on all of us. She's understanding it all a lot better and starting to embrace a little of her independence again, thank God! She's really my little side kick. So many times she'll tell me how Rue is feeling or that she needs a diaper or a kiss... Or "Mom! She's mad! Her face is purple!" I'm enjoying the quiet easy days we share at home because I'm still a bit overwhelmed by taking them out on my own! Everything takes so much longer when there's a double stroller and two kids involved. I'm getting the hang of it though!

XOXO

Miranda